Kayra

The first snow was falling when I got back. The same street, the same lanterns and the same sky over Mystic Falls. But what about you? You were missing.

I stood in front of the house we lived in back then, you, me, and music coming from a little Bluetooth speaker and that one scent that filled the room like something that never went away. Tonka Impériale. It was your last luxury in a world that often seemed too cheap. Almond, jasmine, tobacco and that unforgettable sweetness. Soft, dark and full of pride.

You always wore it when it got cold. As if to remind yourself that warmth is possible, even if you can't feel it.

Up on the fourth floor was our room.
Room 706? No. But it sometimes felt like it.

I walked quietly to the window and looked into the distance, but before that I had turned on the Bluetooth speaker with our favorite song "Lord Huron - The Night We Met", how many times have we heard it?

I never asked you why you left. Maybe because I knew that you were no longer where you were supposed to be, even when you were lying next to me. You were often far away, in my thoughts, with the songs. But never with the scent. It stayed, it hung in the sheets, in the hallway and often on my jacket.

Now I often wear a hint of Tonka Impériale myself. Perhaps to understand you. Maybe to remind me of days gone by. The scent makes me feel warm every time.

And when "Lord Huron - The Night We Met" drips through my ears like liquid mist. Then I know I'll see you again, if only I knew when.

Thank you for reading.

Kayra.

Fragrance impression: As I already described in my review of Guerlain Spiritueuse Double Vanille, I unfortunately made the big mistake of discovering the wonderful Guerlain brand far too late, but better late than never :). Now let's get to the fragrance impression of the stunning Guerlain Tonka Impériale, what I would like to add is that this fragrance is my favorite fragrance of the brand Guerlain. The fragrance starts with a sweet note of almond, bergamot and tonka bean. As it progresses, the slightly spicy rosemary joins in and both tobacco and jasmine come to the fore, but not in a heavy, buttery way. Slightly woody notes from the pinewood and light smoke are also added by the incense, but it is predominantly the tobacco and tonka bean that make this fragrance simply irresistible. So what can we finally say? The fragrance can be frightening at first because of the pyramid, but the scent is so gentle and soft, and that is simply fascinating. Chapeau to the Guerlain brand for this masterpiece. It is a shame that it has been discontinued, but I hope it will make a comeback.

He says he's not dreaming.
But every night he searches only for her in the moonlight, between neon lights, cold concrete and the flickering pulse of the city, he loses himself, but always finds her again ...

She is more than a feeling, she seems so panicked, so fascinating. Is she a promise or a fleeting whiff that tells him "You can have everything, but not all of me"?

The moonlight rustles in his pockets. But melodies rustle in his head. Her voice flies over the city, breaks down walls, builds palaces, and all of that just from words.

But behind his eyelids, only an image lives ... as she floats towards him, in a night so clear that stars whisper as she breathes.

He smells her before he sees her.
Fresh jasmine, ylang-ylang and rose in the air. A sweet shimmer of rum, benzoin and bourbon vanilla, reminding him of too many unspoken words. Cedar wood, as creamy and soft as her fingertips on his temple. He knows he will lose her as soon as the sun finds her. But in the darkness, she is his.

He presses his forehead to hers as the streets swallow everything. His dreams smell of the most delicate and beautiful vanilla, which radiates a warmth that remains when everything else goes. The night never becomes day in his Moonlight Dreams. There it lives, there it dances, there it whispers ... "You can lose everything, but not all of me."

He carries her with him, not in photos, not in bags. But in this scent that tells him: "Dream on, the night is yours, as long as you smell it, you are free."

Fragrance impression: Unfortunately, I personally never paid attention to the "Guerlain" brand before, not even in my youth, which now turns out to be a big mistake. I also often had a problem with vanilla fragrances, as they can often be very synthetic or even have something "plasticine" about them, which often just gives you a headache. But then the day came when I discovered Spiritueuse Double Vanille, this fragrance changed my entire image of vanilla and also left a perfect first impression of the Guerlain brand. The scent just more than surprised me, it's a totally clean and heavenly vanilla paired with a beautiful jasmine, rose and ylang-ylang. The boozyness from the rum and benzoin add something very seductive to this scent and the cedar wood makes it a little "smoky" yet creamy at the same time. I am glad that I discovered the Guerlain brand and also discovered such great fragrances, there are three other fragrances of the brand that fascinate me every time anew, they are almost fragrances that totally scream for me, because they meet my taste one hundred percent.

Thank you for reading.

Kayra.

It was the fall of 2009, when the rain fell like silver threads from the sky and the streets of New Orleans appeared as shiny as freshly polished asphalt. The clouds hung heavy over the city, as if they wanted to condense every feeling, make every thought heavier. I sat at the wheel of an old, rusty Chevy Impala, the windows slightly steamed up, while the love of my life hummed along quietly to a song we both knew but neither of us could quite pronounce anymore.

She was wearing my old leather jacket. The jacket that had seen so much, a concert in Austin, a fight in Phoenix, a kiss in a parking lot somewhere in Mystic Falls. Now it protected her narrow shoulders from the cold wind of the Mississippi Delta. Her hair stuck to her cheeks, damp from the drizzle, but there was the same fierceness in her eyes as when we first met.

We were searching, not for a place, but for a feeling. For a "we" beyond everyday life, beyond the worries that had grown between us like invisible walls. I had planned the route as an attempt to recapture something that was threatening to slip away. Our love was hanging by a thread.

"Do you remember what you said before we left?" she asked suddenly, her voice barely louder than the rain.

I nodded. Not because I knew where this path ended, but because I felt that it existed in the first place because of her. Without her, every path was just asphalt. With her, even the rain became a home.

We stopped at a small bar on the edge of the French Quarter. Inside it smelled of bourbon, music and wet wood. An old man was playing "A thousand years - Christina Perri" on the piano, and although she and I knew it, it hit us anew that night. We sat next to each other in silence, two shadows under flickering light, while our hands found each other as if by magic.

"I want you for eternity," she whispered, as if she had read it straight from my heart.

The rain outside was getting heavier, but it didn't matter. What really bothered us was what we didn't say to each other.

But that evening we started to talk. Not in sentences, but in looks. In touches. In the quiet smile that hid between two breaths.

At the end of that day, I saw the colors again that I thought I had lost. And maybe this road trip was more than an escape. Maybe it was the start of something new. Something that won't tear, even if it's only hanging by a thread.

Fragrance impression: Xerjoff and I have really been on a fragrance journey for years now, but I never had this fragrance on my radar. It's an abnormal shame that this fragrance has been discontinued and the partnership between MV Agusta & Xerjoff has ended. The fragrance comes in the traditional box from the Stone Label collection, but the box is quite chic and the MV Agusta logo is engraved in the box. The fragrance starts with an incredibly beautiful leather note, which is totally reminiscent of a new car, followed by bergamot, ylang-ylang and iris, which give this fragrance a light fresh and floral note. Clove, cistus, musk and patchouli give this fragrance a "dirty" note that is strongly reminiscent of rubber, oil, gasoline and a racetrack. In my opinion, this is a really successful fragrance that I can only recommend to anyone who likes somewhat "dirtier" scents.

Thank you for reading.

Kayra

I had known her for ages, not through confessions or touching, but through all the quiet things in between. Shared mornings, deep conversations at night, smiling at the same trains of thought, the same hobbies.

She knew me the way you know a favorite song - not just the melody, but every shaky word behind it. And me? I loved her without ever telling her.

Once I wrote it down - "I love you so much" - on a crumpled piece of paper that lay hidden in my closet for years, invisible because my anxiety was too loud.

Then came the day she left. New city, new life, a different path. I smiled as she spoke, for she is the woman of my dreams. I wished her happiness while my heart quietly burst.

Years went by. Time passed me by like a train I never got on. Then I saw her again. The same beautiful green sparkling eyes with the angelic scent of "Elle | XerJoff".

We talked. Laughed. And at some point, very carefully, I finally said what had been silent for so long: "I've always loved you."

She was silent for a moment. Then she reached into her pocket and pulled out an old, folded piece of paper - my handwriting. "I found it before I left," she said quietly. "I waited, but you never said anything."

I stared at her - the tears behind my lids, the time between us. "I thought I'd lost you," I whispered.

She shook her head. "You never lost me. I was just on my way back to you."

This time we kissed not in thought, not in memory - but for real. Here. Now.

And the piece of paper? It's now in a picture frame, above our shared bed.

Fragrance impression: The Xerjoff brand and I are now on a very long journey. However, the Xerjoff fever has more than just hit me again. But now to "Elle | XerJoff": it starts off floral and fruity, the bergamot and neroli are very perceptible, followed by a very delicate rose and a beautifully crafted iris. At the end, you get something warm from the amber and the musk. Overall, it is a very fine, powdery, delicate, floral fragrance. It absolutely thrilled me.

Thank you very much for reading.

Kayra.

In some dreams, time flies by as silently as the blink of an eye. Everything blurs, everything passes, only I am often left behind. Left with questions to which no one has an answer. I wonder when the time will finally come for nothing.

I walk - no - I stumble through a life that tastes more like duty than meaning. Always searching, as if somewhere out there is a place where all the pain, all the questions come to an end. But every day seems to me to be just an echo of the last. I wonder when it will fade away?

I curse more than I laugh. My hope? Lies frozen somewhere under the rubble of old plans. I don't know when I put it there, maybe the day I lost myself. And since then I've been searching, desperately, silently, sometimes screaming, but above all alone. I ask myself, when will I find answers?

The only question is, what can I change if no one really sees me? How can I start over if no one understands who I was, or who I could be? When not even I, or my definition of I, has an answer?

Sometimes I just want to leave. Not run away, no, let go. The expectations, the pressure, the mask, the daily routine.

I don't want to forget who I was. I want to find out who I really am. Because somewhere deep inside me is the reflection to myself that I am worth digging up, finding and seeing. From my own strength. From my own answers.

Fragrance impression: You are different from the other Saubermann fragrances, you are elegant, you have style and you can smell it. It starts with an incredible freshness, which is hard to find in another fresh laundry fragrance, the rosemary and red pepper are very present at the beginning, but become softer over time, then the flowers are added, which simply couldn't fit better here, the jasmine and iris are clearly perceptible, so you should like floral fragrances. In the drydown, you notice the sandalwood, vetiver and patchouli. The overall package is a fresh laundry scent that is floral and powdery at the same time. Personally, I have been a lover of this fragrance for several years and in my eyes there is no better clean scent.

Thank you for reading.

Kayra.