The rain hung heavily over the small coastal town in Oregon, as if trying to wash away everything that hurt too much. Between the crooked wooden houses that had withstood the wind for decades, lived two people who never really found each other yet never completely lost one another.
They met for the first time on the banks of the Columbia River, at one of those places where the world seemed quieter, as if it had grown tired. One wore a smile that looked as if it had endured too many falls. The other was drawn to such cracks, perhaps because she believed that only damaged people shine honestly.
Their love was not a fireworks display, but a slow, bittersweet intoxication that settled like fog into their bones. Nights that were too quiet, words that weighed too heavily. Always hovering over them was the feeling that something dark stood between them, a pull stronger than promises and plans.
The retreat came slowly. The streets of Astoria suddenly felt wider, colder. They lived just a few houses apart, yet every step became heavier, as if the ground itself was warning them. There were days when he lost himself in thoughts, in himself, in the things he could not express.
“I’m trying,” he said, barely audible. “Again and again. But something pulls me down. And you deserve someone who doesn’t disappear into the dark.”
She placed her hand on his cheek, feeling the cold of the rain and the greater cold behind it.
“I don’t want to fix you,” she whispered. “Just hold you.”
He smiled weakly, broken, as always.
“Sometimes leaving is the only thing left for me.”
The next morning, Oregon was quieter than usual. No farewell note on the table, only the echo of the rain that had beaten against the windows during the night. He was gone, not from the world, but from the part she could reach.
Weeks later, she found a small note in the pocket of his jacket, which he must have slipped to her unnoticed at some point. Only a single sentence was written on it:
“You were my light, but I am made of shadow.”
She folded the note, placing it against her heart like a scar.
And every time the rain fell over Oregon, it sounded like his breath.
Faded.
But never completely gone.
Thank you for reading.
Kayra.
Fragrance description: Personally, I find it quite difficult to find the right words for this masterpiece, as Roja's highest art of perfumery has been at work here. At first, I really didn’t like the fragrance, as it seemed a bit too “musty” to me and I didn’t quite understand a Chypre pyramid, but over time you get to know it better and eventually you can't get enough of Chypre fragrances. However, this scent here is a very special Chypre; it combines a very old Chypre from long-gone days with a light modern twist. The fragrance starts somewhat fruity with various citrus fruits. It then continues with a very delicious yet bitter peach that joins a garden of intertwined flowers. And finally, oak moss, leather notes, clove, civet, cumin, and much more come together, providing a proper spiciness and thus completing the last piece of a Chypre pyramid. To summarize, it is an incredibly animalistic Chypre that you either hate or love, and in my case, it is simply absolute love; in my opinion, it is the perfect embodiment of a Chypre fragrance. Did Serge Diaghilev have this perspective as well? Why did he spray the curtains in the ballet pieces?
"That only damaged people shine honestly," how beautifully sad is that! And who isn't damaged?
Thank you for your lovely text and the great description; I'm taking it as a reason to wear it today.
Great review - this melancholy fits the gloomy soup outside! I think Diaghilev lived life to the fullest, didn’t hold back, and didn’t let anyone push him around. Being homosexual around 1900 was definitely no walk in the park... and in some cultures, it still isn’t. I believe Francesca Bianchi drew inspiration from him for her fragrances. Because in the base, they all smell a bit like Diaghilev. I've worn it about 4-5 times now and I love it too............... and now I'm off to dance some ballet again. 🤭
Beautiful review Kuzan. I sampled Diaghilev in the beginning of the year and I too didn’t understand the fragrance back then. I revisited it last week and now everything falls perfectly together. I guess it shows how much your nose can grow in a few months. Can’t wait to add it to my collection! All the best my friend
Wow - how beautiful is this painting! Especially since I've been to Oregon and know the Columbia River and Astoria, I can feel this story even more.
Thank you for your effort and this great review, my good friend.
First of all, I want to thank you for reading my review, dear J0J0, and a big thank you for the kind words! And I have a question: was that the road trip with the song "Beach House - Rough Song"?
Your text carries such a gentle, honest melancholy. It's sad, but never cold, and that's what touches me. Thank you for letting me read it, dear Kayra🤍
Thank you for your lovely text and the great description; I'm taking it as a reason to wear it today.
Thank you for your effort and this great review, my good friend.