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+++TW: waste of time+++TW: tried to put the mood of this one into a story+++TW: You won’t find what you’re looking for+++
- What if I didn’t want you to be involved in that?
There came no answer as a familiar looking dark eyed child just picked up the bag of raspberry soda.
"Look at diis, it tickles n foams!"
Its curls bounced as it looked up in awe only to be pushed to the side and ignored.
- Don’t you think of me strong enough to survive? I've made it this far. And nobody expected.
“U pwawmissed us!“
Again, they were pushing it to the side, out of sight.
‘I do, I really do believe in you. But consider the costs. They want you broken. Run as fast as you can, that would be my advice. They never cared about destroying you as you could always be replaced. Come with me or run. Please.’
„Can I caaam wit yu? Pweease?”
It came softer this time without it being less pleading.
- But… What if they do care after all?
The response came without even a flinch.
‘I should be pitying anyone they care for. Never came good from evil. Those monsters would be the most terrible thing to encounter indeed.’
…
- I’m sorry that I let you down.
It’s not as if no one warned that poor thing.
‘I couldn’t tell you why I watched it make the same mistakes. Again. And nobody cared.’
“I aawayz do!”
…
Don‘t fit in? This is for you. Noone might see the struggle, the way you’re wrapped in pain and grief.
“But me I do!”
Let me be the first one to hug you this year. No one loves you.
“Why no one love me? Whut I did? Can I be better? I pwaamiss, I can!”
I make you feel as if you‘d drown but at once make sure it won‘t be in sorrow this time. I am every single part you hate about yourself.
“Why shoot we hait awself? What did we do?”
I am your flaws, your insecurities, everything you’d change though you shouldn’t even consider. Let me change the color of your aura. I’m not the darkness, I’m light.
Remember that happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to light the candles. Let me light those candles for you. Sit down, have some tea.
“It whorm an nice. I laaw tea!”
It will help against your stomach pain, too.
“Can I haff sum candy pwease?”
Take a candy. Close your eyes. Everything’s going to be alright and if you ask me to, rather than consider buying you a mockingbird I would gift you the world.
…
I might never have been close to any of their kind, but every person who understands my language feels like home.
’So what if I told you that home was no house - with keys to lock it and ban you to sleeping in a cardboard box. What if I told you there won’t be anyone stabbing your back with a fork anymore. What if I told you that you could just love yourself the way you are. Don’t ever let no one tell you you ain’t beautiful. Be proud of who you are. That’s what a wise man once told me. It is about time you discover it yourself.’
- Want some honey in your tea?
“Faiive spoooms pleath!”
And there went the honey. Only this time no one shouted, no one threatened, no one cried. How easy it could be to not pass toxic behaviors and healing oneself.
- I love you.
“Laaw you too!”
What a tangled mess of curls they made being wrapped up in a hug that could have last a lifetime.
What time was it? Lost track of it.
“It’s time for biskitts!”
‘It always is. Let’s go find all sweets and candies around this place. Might not be here tomorrow anyway.’
“But me I want to stay.”
- Please stay with me. I want you to never leave my side.
“Am I don’t wont to leaf.”
What a re-leaf. Sorry little one. Couldn’t keep it to myself.
“I laik whem you laugh!”
Us too, little one, us too.
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1st note: Sorrynotsorry.
2nd note: You might have guessed two wise men inspired me some way while writing this.
3rd note: If not, it were Dumbledore and Eminem. So if you ever considered my texts subliminal, keep in mind who I got it from and be glad it didn’t turn out worse :’).
4th note: Might be a little bit sorry anyway.